Today.

I woke up after a good night's sleep.

I went and had a productive group meeting about our exoplanet project.

I watched some funny videos.

I went to class, first and second half.

I came home and made dinner,

I did some makeup work for class while watching lost.

I went to a Bej's with K,

I played guitar,

I taught calculus.

I am going to bed early to go to work tomorrow.

Just regular, just what I needed,

Thank you.

I could do this again sometime.

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blah blah blah blah no motivation blah blah blah

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blah blah blah

lets get trashed.

blah.

pizza egg saves lives.

ooooooooooooooohhhhh godddddddddddddddddddddd i'm having that midlife crisis i have every so often where i realize i might be crazy.

this time it was because i was looking at a picture of myself that was really regular of me just standing by myself at a party and it was FREAKING ME OUT because if there is a photograph of me then i was NOT invisible that night. and i hate not being invisible when i think i am. and then i turned over and looked at my cat wall and then started to say hi cat hi cat hi cat hi upside-down cat to each cat. and then i thought, oh god, i may have a chronic mental illness.

but that was just a mini midlife crisis. i think i may be over it now. i like to push all thoughts like that out of my head and remember that i'm just regular and boring.

last night was pleasant. i was Very Friendly. everyone got plenty of hugs and kisses and i love yous. i ran and leapt into my husbands arms multiple times. my memory of that event favors the idea that i was just like an angel swiftly floating into an embrace but i fear in reality it was more akin to a bull driving a monster truck and hurling itself towards a Riff-Raff. i think i'll stick with my version.

what am i doing this summer?

if there is one thing that college taught me is that i just want to Play. play play play play play play.

i got out of bed today and yesterday and the day before. maybe i can keep it up. i'm going to keep it up. because what can i do if not get out of bed each morning?