I am taking Astronomy and Cosmologies this term and I really really really really love it but every time I am in class I think AHHHHH I NEED TO NOT BE IN CLASS. But I only have class twice a week so it shouldn't be a problem. But it somehow is. Even though I love it. I get antsy and hyperventilate and overheat and so I don't pay attention and I then I leave too soon. It might be this new thing that I am trying, Sober and Awake in Class 2010. Since there are no morning classes I am awake and since I'm respectable I am being more respectable. And it would be working if I had any ability to pay attention. But I'm so into everything that we are doing. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
It was free burrito and coffee day. Need I say more.
Today I did a lot of reflecting on making friends. I've never made friends before this year. Other people make friends and then I hang out with the old friends and the new people. And then it just sort of one day makes us into friends. But this year I tried a new thing called Making Friends. I didn't do it on purpose at first but then I made a friend on purpose and now we're friends. He is the first friend I ever made on purpose and I don't care for it. It weirds me out now that we're friends. Creepy. And then other people made friends with me. Also very creepy. Like today friends were asking me to hang out and it was as though I had friends. It is just not something that I quite understand. Maybe other people have been doing this all along and I am just late to the game. Very possible.
Oh, but in my class we are doing research projects. And I am partners with Bej and we are doing a project on exoplanets. I'm so excited. So so so excited. Yes.
I am dislodged from time today. No time has ever been the right time so far today. It might have something to do with it being free coffee day but I don't think so. I love free coffee day. It happens every once in a while and all I do is coffee coffee coffee all day. No one notices.
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I have also been thinking about how this is the most I've lived in one place without itching to leave. But I've also been thinking lately about how I am itching to leave. I can't imagine doing this again next year. It seems as though it would be far too monotonous. I don't think it would be because things change pretty quick around these parts but just thinking about having classes in the same buildings and walking the same paths to places makes me antsy. I don't like new places but I don't like old places. I like comfortable but from a distance places. Familiar but not intimate places.
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I find out whether I got my job out here for this summer very shortly. If I do get it then it will be quite the summer I think. I really really really want Mel to live with me on the island and have a great time, but her parents are pretty much telling her that she can't stray too far from them even though it seems that she wants to stay out here too. But thats kind of a nice problem to have, you know? (I have also been thinking a lot about nice problems to have. I started realizing all the nice problems people have and then I started realizing all the nice problems I have. Like feeling too comfortable in a place- that's a nice problem to have. Or not being able to decide what to eat for dinner- that's a nice problem to have.) But if I don't get the job then I don't know what I will do. I am looking into working the ranch life in Colorado or Montana or some equally nonexistent state. That would be strange.
In other news, I got married a few weeks ago. His name is Riff Raff. He is the love of my life. He is the Most Popular Guy in the ALLL the World. And I am the Most Beautiful Girl in ALLLLLL the World. We didn't have those titles when we got married, our marriage is based purely on love. We got married at the Mango House, had our first dance and everything. We renewed our vows a few days later on facebook. We had our honeymoon last Thursday at Glitter Mansion. We had our first fight last Friday morning at Glitter Mansion. He's a dream boat.
Thank you and goodnight.
